The holiday season can be a challenge for me with all the social events/parties to attend.
One of the biggest hurdles that I face at these social gatherings is the expectation of other people, mainly friends. They all have an idea of how the holidays should be experienced, with the focus being on drinking alcohol.
In the past, these events would be a time for drinking and partying. Today, it is not about that for me. But this time of year does require extra diligence to maintaining my spiritual condition and recovery.
This holiday season I have started reading the Big Book again, from the beginning. As I read, I’m reminded that no matter how much time goes by, how good I feel, and how successful I am in life, I will never be safe from the grips of my alcoholi.
Most of us have believed that if we remained sober for a long stretch, we could thereafter drink normally. We have seen the truth demonstrated again and again: “Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic.” Commencing to drink after a period of sobriety, we are in a short time as bad as ever. P. 33
I have seen this self-defeating, rationalizing behavior more times than I’d like to admit through my work, family, and in the rooms. Yet, I can have all the knowledge in the world, but if I’m not maintaining my recovery, spiritual path, and practicing the steps I can give into that first drink as quickly as anyone else.
No matter how many years I have in recovery, I’m no stronger than someone who has one day sober.
We are in this together, one day at a time.
Happy, sober, holidays!
Happy, clean and sober, life!